A couple of weeks ago I lost all contents of my website. Every single blog post ever published, all drafts and comment ever received. To say I was shattered is a bit of an over statement. Sure I was and still am a tad upset about all the lost content, and I may have lost a bit of sleep trying to retrieve it all, but at 1:45am I resigned all hopes of ever getting it back. So I’m starting over. A forced resolution nine days into the new year.
With that said, allow me to reintroduce you to my little space on the interwebs…
As you may or may not know (and if you haven’t read my About page), I am Celeste. Biological mom of 3 and surrogate mom of some one thousand kids at my local high school I call home from Monday to Friday 7-4 each week. Yep, I get paid to be a mom. In print my marriage seems pretty clichè. I’m married to my childhood sweetheart who also happens to be my best friend. The husband is the one person that pushes my buttons the hardest and makes me climb walls. Luckily I like him as much as I love him. He happens to feel the same. What the print doesn’t tell you is that we started our life together totally backward. Had two babies and then only decided that we love each other enough to not get married for the sake of the kids. So no… Marriage wasn’t a forced issue. Staying together has nothing to do with the kids either. We enjoy annoying the heck out of each other like the kids we used to be.
I started writing in 2010 when a psychiatrist recommended I find an outlet for my overactive brain. He said it would be good therapy and will help with anxiety. What he didn’t say is how addictive it becomes. How the best way to work through emotions is through your fingertips. I guess that was implied ‘between the lines’. Living inside my head is still one of my biggest vices. I’m a creative. That’s what we do. Seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist was the best decision I ever made in my life. Being an anxiety sufferer is not the end of the world and we’re no different from anyone who can’t relate to mental illness. We all operate on different frequencies and our realities differ in any case, but we can all relate to some situations.
There is nothing I enjoy more than sharing my reality with anyone who cares to listen or read.
We may all differ in some way or other but at the core we’re all women. You guys do enjoy no make-up or bra days as much as I do right? Yes? No? Anyways… I’m sure we’ll find a common denominator if not that. My quirks are plenty. Which is why I started this blog. No Ordinary Woman is less about me and more about encouraging women to grab it and believe in themselves so strongly that you all become arrogant enough to think that you are No Ordinary Woman. Because let’s face it, none of us are. It is my prayer and wish for every woman reading this post and every future post to be glow getters and goal diggers.
The aim of this blog is still to encourage, inspire, motivate and empower women so you can look forward to me being your cheerleader and championing you all the way. Posts will include How to say No without feeling guilty, How to love yourself and your body (because nobody ever tells us exactly how to do it), Picking up the ball after you’ve dropped it. I’ll be talking about mental health issues, my confidence revolution and how I now walk into rooms and wonder if I like the occupants never stopping to consider if they like me. Yeah, I’m that woman who will leave a party with no excuses if I don’t feel comfortable. Living MY life unapoligetically yet showing the wirld kindness because we do need more kibdess. We also need to know how to breach taboo topics. A few of which my husband won’t approve of but you guys need to know the benefits of kegel balls and menstrual cups etc.
For now though I’ll leave you with this…
Happiness does not depend on what you have, how you look or even your bank balance. Nor does it depend on anyone else or their actions. There is beauty in the smallest moments and so much to be grateful of. Don’t give anyone the responsibility of making you happy. Take accountability for your own life and concentrate on the things you can control. Be you and be mindful of all the positives and make your happiness your priority.
Know your strengths and nurture it. What you’re doing is important. Your uniqueness is what makes you special. Our mistakes are what shapes us and teaches us valuable lessons. Don’t sweat the little things. There is a solution to every problem.
Your journey will be that much easier if you embrace challenges and work towards your goals. Make no mistake, there will always be challenges but believe in yourself and in your next step. Remember to celebrate every victory no matter how small.
Most importantly, trust yourself and give yourself permission to live. Don’t be afraid to make mistakes.
And always remember that success is inevitable, only in hindsight.
Starting over has nothing to do with a new year or new week. You can start over on any day and at any time. Grace allows for us to do so every morning.